Saturday, January 2, 2021

Random Midnight Thoughts

Rich ugly. 

- I never got ripped jeans. I didn't get them when I was a kid and I still don't get them now. It's a thing. Ppl spend good money for brokenness.

-Why spend money to be ugly? We live in an age where white rich ppl use their money to make things ugly and tedious. Did Andy Warhol start this trend? Is it funk? Is it punk? Is it skunk? It feels like it's infected the brain of left wing rich ppl in urban areas.

-I read contemporary literature penned by MFA artists and the characters are mostly small and sad. The stories are filled inarticulate ellipses and dashes to fake realness. Characters fumble to express mundane high school memories or drunk moms living in suburban sadness. But these writers grew up going to boarding schools before moving on to the Ivy Leagues. Once again, why try to be ugly and small and inarticulate and tedious? The world is naturally that way.

-why are we obsessed with ugliness? Is it pop art? You know what ppl in other countries think when they see exposed brick apt? 'OMG, someone didn't finish the job. This is appalling.' Yet we value it as authentic. We value the ugliness so much that exposed brick is now seen as a sign of affluence. 

-Once again, why are you trying to be ugly? There are so many ppl naturally living ugly? If you want realness go live in the projects and let those families live in your penthouses. Let roaches crawl on top of you and mice dash through your cupboard. You wouldn't like that b/c that's too real ugly. Vermin and rodents are living ugliness that you can't control.  

- it's not only rich white ppl. The thug life trend is an equal opportunity movement of bagginess and mumbling. 

- I know I sound like an old man. But I've been an old man since I was in pre-school. I never understood Cabbage Patch kids. They were so ugly and ppl would fight over them. I never understood aspiring to tattoo 'thug life' on your belly. Tupac was such a brilliant artists, but I never understood the ugliness he would unleash in some of his songs...the misogyny and homophobia and rancid rage made no sense when he was so brilliant. 

- Post Malone came on the screen last night and felt so sad. Here is the rich white guy with all this disgusting tattoos on his face, greasy hair, and producing garbage music. And I listened to him for a few minutes and thought 'this man is so unhappy and rich and ugly. And he wanted this.' He worked HARD to make himself unhygienic and gross. Is it a deflecting mechanism? Why try so hard? 

- is it b/c beauty is effeminate, feminine, un-manly? Is it b/c delicateness and intricacy and care is queer? Must Western masculinity make things ugly to proudly assert to the world 'no homo.' Is it b/c modern masculinity must defecate on the world to assert its supremacy? Is there a cost to denying your own beauty?

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