Thursday, April 30, 2020

Light Brigade's Sacrifice

Our 7th grade english teacher assigned each student a poem to research and create some inspired derived art. My assignment was Sir Alfred Lord Tennyson's "Charge of the Light Brigade," a poem about British light cavalry charging into Russian artillery during a battle in the Crimean War. All the British died. Tennyson wrote a heroic poem about their sacrifice and the galloping meter is meant to sound like charging horses...or firing guns (depending upon your perspective).

My derived art was a t-shirt with the poem's opening lines stenciled in black alongside abstract images of horses running into plumes of smoke, and a red trail of blood. I also remember that the cavalry charge was due to the British military command's miscommunication. They sent the wrong cavalry to the wrong position. It was a tragic and stupid accident that killed hundreds in a few minutes. The French press called it madness. The Russian soldiers thought the British cavalry were drunk b/c the charge was so stupid. But after Tennyson's romantic poem... everyone fell in love with the idea of the light brigade as a symbol of Christian martyrdom mixed with nationalism toward the British Empire. The media forgot about the gross incompetence of the stupid old leaders. It's easier to focus on the young, beautiful corpses. The British population felt that these young men sacrificed themselves for their freedom and backed the government even more. Nevermind that the Crimean War had nothing to do with citizen's freedom and had everything to do with real estate and capital.

It was the first time I realized that many of the everyday heroes promoted by the media were victims created by incompetence, greed, stupidity, and sloth of the higher-ups. There are so many preventable tragedies where the working class are sacrificed and cheered on from the sidelines by the media and elites. "Go boy go!' I think about that misguided hero worships a lot. As half of the states re-open their economies tomorrow, I wonder how many more of us will join the ranks of the light brigade. How many Americans will be sent to their deaths while being cheered on by the wealthy. Maybe someone will write a poem about our economic heroes at the Tyson Meatpacking Plants or the MTA workers. Their preventable deaths will make many people into tragic heroes.

II
“Forward, the Light Brigade!”
Was there a man dismayed?
Not though the soldier knew
   Someone had blundered.
   Theirs not to make reply,
   Theirs not to reason why,
   Theirs but to do and die.
   Into the valley of Death
   Rode the six hundred.

III
Cannon to right of them,
Cannon to left of them,
Cannon in front of them
   Volleyed and thundered;
Stormed at with shot and shell,
Boldly they rode and well,
Into the jaws of Death,
Into the mouth of hell
   Rode the six hundred.

Saturday, April 25, 2020

1:30 AM Thoughts

My call for my mom dozens of times every day. Some times it's a gasp, other times it's a moan or a plea.

...Yvon...Yvon...Yvon...Yvon...

This is the only word he can say now. He's bed bound, partially paralyzed, mostly blind. He needs some one to feed, bathe, clothe, and tend to his every need. And the only word he can still access is my mom's name.

...Yvon...

My Dad is trapped in a sinewy, emaciated body. His arms are stiff and the muscles have curled themselves into question marks. His thin legs are also stiff.

He calls out at 5 am, 7am, 7:30am...the calls go on throughout the day and into the night. He's calling out now. It's 1:30 am. I help when I can, but my mom is doing it mostly on her own. I'm just visiting for an extended stay due to the coronavirus quarantine.

My mom has gotten used to changing him a dozen times a day...even with nurses here intermittently. She's gotten used to sleeping only a few hours. For most of the year, it's just him and her in this big yellow house. There are pictures of me and my sister, our school awards, diplomas, and certificates. Several family portraits grace different rooms. The photos were taken when me and my sister were kids. Our family looked like a healthy, prosperous, black, loving foursome. I think about that now as my dad grasps the last word left in his mind and flings it out into the blind darkness.

...Yvon...Yvon....

COVID-19 and Capitalism

MEDIA: what are ppl going to do if they live paycheck to paycheck? They stay home and they go broke. They go out to work and they catch the 'rona.

ME: you could just raise taxes on the rich, create a temporary $2,000/month UBI so that non-essential workers can stay home for the next 2-3 months without having to worry about rent or paying their mortgage.

MEDIA: It's a damn pickle. If only there was some way out of these 2 awful choices!!

ME: Other countries are paying citizens to stay home. Those ppl will spend that $2,000 and help keep the economy going. You just have to raise taxes on the rich.

MEDIA: Damn shame there's nothing we can do about it.

ME: Just raise taxes on billionaires. They already got 80% of the $2 trillion stimulus package. They have more money than ever. The rich aren't going to go broke paying 10% more taxes for a few months, it will save the economy, and offer some sense of calm to the 20% unemployed and indie contractors who want to stay home but need money.

MEDIA: Well, you want to get back out there middle-class America? Yeah, this will cause the infection rate to go up, many of you will die unnecessarily, and make everything worse but...there's just no other way around drinking the poison. We have to save the stock mar- I mean the economy. So drink up! We salute you 'economic heroes.' 

Despair

Despair is a natural feeling in the middle of a disaster. It's been the condition of black people in this country for hundreds of years: realizing that your gov won't help you, your boss may betray you, your friends may leave you. It's the same condition for other people of color, gays, lesbians, transgender. Now on a mass scale people are experiencing that black n' blue despair...the stress, heightened blood pressure, anxiety. If we don't rush 'to fix it' or 'fake it' something can rise out of this agony. That is also the condition of black people. The blues, the rage, the howl. It doesn't have to lead to a poem or a new song.  it doesn't have to lead to anything....getting to the blues is enough.

Thursday, April 23, 2020

A Season in Hell

Friends in other countries want to know what it's like here in America? It must be terrible, right? Well yes...and no. We left terrible a long time ago. Terrible was 49,000 deaths ago. Terrible was January, February, and March...a slow statistical tidal wave heading toward us, numbers so large that they became abstract...until 100 people starting dying every day. And then 200, and then a 1,000. Then it was no longer numbers. It was faces and names attached to numbers, and mothers and fathers and teachers and police officers.

Now we are just here...a 9/11 every day. Remember when we thought 2,000 Americans dying in one day was a gamechanger? We are in the midst of mass graves and there is no strong father figure or trusthworthy voice. America does not have a consoler in chief. We don't even have a human being with a functional level of empathy. And...there is a serenity in this. There is a calm in realizing that no one is coming to save us, the cavalry won't arrive. We are on our own, garbage bag PPE's, scarf masks, gofundme funerals, and all. I think under normal circumstances there would be this anxiety in wondering when the gov is going to get around to helping and protecting you. There is this anticipation of 'right prevailing.' But there is none of that here. We no longer expect the right thing or the humane decision to be made. We no longer expect the truth to be spoken unless all the lies have been exhausted.

This is a full-blown kakistocracy backed by alt-right racists and white fundamentalist Christian terrorists who never pass up an opportunity to hurt, belittle, demean other citizens (apparently it's what Jesus would have wanted.) There is no lie too small, no theft too petty for the most powerful man in the world. His minions slither over every apparatus of gov and media. They pick at the 50,000 dead bodies like grave robbers looking for pocket change and talking points. Some in the media still try to make the false equivalent link between this and Hillary's missing emails or the weakness of Dems. Some of these people are rationalist, who are the worst kind of creatures in a one-sided catastrophe.

A rationalist will sit there and try to balance the scales of wrongs because it's impossible to fathom the bottomless despicable nature of men. Rationalists look for the pony in the pile of shit. The rationalists are trying to balance the mass graves against Biden's malapropisms or past errors. And still...no one is coming to rescue. We are all we have. Families huddle in their quarantines together, chat on Zoom, bake the banana bread and take pictures of it. It becomes easy to settle into the inferno when the temperature is increased incrementally. The heat creeps up on you like the 16,000 lies told in 3 years or the 50,000 dead Americans in 5 weeks. And so we bake, and cook, and exercise. It's not callous. We have to hold on to something. If you close your eyes and focus, you might be able to pretend that it's a sauna or a very long artists retreat...in hell.

We binge, we purge, we scroll. 

Monday, April 20, 2020

Covid Cognitive Dissonance

2020 is the year....

- oil went down to $0/barrel.

- toilet paper went up to $20/roll.

- pro-life movement advocating mass death.

- Andrew Cuomo is apparently a hero.

-270 new coronavirus Kentucky patients after GOP-driven 'Reopen Protests.'

-With a mortality rate of 2-4%, that equals 5-10 dead Kentucky residents on behalf of Trump's re-election campaign.

-expect the same spike in new infections in Michigan, Virginia, and Wisconsin.

- you can do the math and estimate how many ppl Fox New is going to kill in your state with every Reopen Protest.

- covid-19 pandemic is

A) media-exaggerated flu created to hurt Trump AND ALSO...

B) a catastrophe that is the fault of the Chinese for lying AND ALSO...

C) the disaster that is the fault of the WHO for not warning Trump AND ALSO...

D) the fault of Obama for not coming up with a cure for a disease that didn't exist when he was president AND ALSO...

E)  the fault of governors for not preparing better for a global pandemic AND ALSO...

F) a triumph for Trump who is doing a great job by only letting 60,000 Americans die in 6 weeks.

All these reasons are valid at the same time with equal weight.

Saturday, April 18, 2020

COVID-19: Pandemic Politics

-40,000 dead Americans due to covid-19 by Sunday. That's in a period of 5 weeks.
- Republicans and Fox are sparking massive protest to disrupt the efforts of health experts trying to reduce the death count.
- the main focus of the GOP is not the body count or the almost certain double peak of deaths public protests will spark. Their main concern is Trump's poll numbers which continue to plummet in swing states. They are calling on protest in Michigan, Minnesota, Wisconsin to hurt the state governments by ramping up the health crisis.
- they know Trump fucked up, they know they're screwed unless they find a way to blur the issue with politics. And they're willing to do that with human lives.
- this is not hyperbolic or hysterical. We are watching in real-time a party intentionally set out a policy that they know will kill thousands of Americans, prolong the quarantine, cripple hospitals, and do even more damage to the economy.
- it will be 50,000 dead Americans by next weekend.
#MAGA #deathcult #democrathoax

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